The world is not so clear anymore.

I visited a lot of old friend's blog today because I am just too bored.
And I noticed...Everyone is so happy...so Hang Fuk.
I am getting unbalance...I am scare...
Will I bcm crazy ?
I am getting blur....Who am I?What is my characteristic?
Should I keep pretending or should I show what I feel?
I am not sure...I wasn't like that...I was a happy girl who show what's her feeling,living in her own crazy little world.
But now?I feel like...it's hard to mix with friends and family...Everyone is like having fun with everyone...
I just don't know what to do.I am lost . L.O.S.T---Lost!
Sometimes I really confuse,about right or wrong.
SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME.
i am sinking.